From Private to Public

*initially this was a private note, but it’s been made available after tonight’s message. (I think this was actually written the first time on October 19, 2014, but I’m not sure because the timestamp changed when I republished this note originally)

I run every other day, so today was not a run day. I went for a run anyway. God and I needed to have a conversation. We seem to talk best on my runs. Well, I’m not sure it was really a conversation because it was mostly one sided. I said a lot. I might have spoken a little louder than normal. Yeah, I’m human like that. I didn’t really stop talking long enough for God to get a word in for Himself. But God is an amazing friend. He’ll let you go on and on without interrupting you or trying to put His two cents in or even give His advice. Nope, He’ll just listen.

By mile one, I shut up. And then God did this unbelievable thing. He covered me in peace and an amazing calmness. He covered me in pure and radiant love. Love no one on Earth can give. I wish I could be this kind of wonderful, but I guess that’s what makes God God and me NOT!

For the first time in five weeks, I ran an 11 minute mile. That seems so frivolous to real runners who pace those things out at 5-7 minutes mile after mile, but I’m not one of those runners. No, it’s still not under ten minutes, but it gives me hope I’ll get back there soon.

I started that run angry. I came back completely at peace.

Tomorrow is my day, or is Tuesday now my day? 🙂

About courage2conquercancer

At the age of 40, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. This is an account of my journey from my discovery and beyond.
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