It doesn’t matter what journey in life you are on, chances are you’ve ran into dead ends or have had to navigate over some rough terrain. I know my life wasn’t full of freshly paved, smooth highways before I was diagnosed with cancer. I didn’t always seek God out during those rough patches of highway, nor did I praise Him when I was cruising down easy street.
As a Christian, I was taught God is always with me. I have to admit there were many times when God felt as far away from me as the farthest star. If I was off living a wild, crazy and unGodly lifestyle, I would have expected God to seem far away. The truth is He often seemed much closer when I was trying to get away from Him than when I was trying to walk in step with Him.
There have been times when I promise you I have heard the voice of God. I have been covered in God’s peace. I know this because I watched my approach to life change dramatically in a moment. My personality and many of my life-long habits instantly became different. It was weird hearing myself talk at times. I saw the looks on my family’s faces as if I was some crazy lady. How could I be so calm? Why was I okay with everything? I wasn’t. God was. And I truly “let go and let God” which is much harder to do than it sounds by the way. When I “let go”, I had to let go of all my goals and wants, and I had to have faith God’s plans and desires for my life would be far better than anything I could imagine for my own life.
I’d love to tell you that I’ve just sat in the back seat and allowed God to chafferer me down the cancer road. No, I try to take the wheel back some times. I’ve tried giving Him direct directions. Every time, He’s reminded me in some way that I am not in charge, and I really don’t want to drive this bus because I’m completely navigationally challenged anyway. Besides, He’s the only one that knows where I’m going.
Today was a day when I was thankful God told me I didn’t have to drive the bus. He’s got it. It’s not that this day has been tougher or rougher than a previous day, far from it in fact. It was just a day when God reminded me that faith in Him is all I need. His plans are good, even the parts I don’t understand. His will for my life will never take me down the wrong road. I needed that encouragement today, and it was there.
Proverbs 3:5-6 – “Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.”