Cancer is a Good Thing – Don’t Waste It!
Those words may not sit real well with us, but they are true. As much as cancer is a bad thing, it is also a good thing. God was the first one to tell me to share my story. My brother also reminded me from the beginning how important the conversations I would have would be, and how the other person may need me to talk more than I needed to share. I can’t even recall how many people have thanked me for sharing and how much they’ve learned or felt like they needed to know.
Cancer is a humbling experience. I’ve lost much and gained more. I’ve been the weakest I’ve ever been in my life and the strongest. I’ve felt like I’ve gone to the darkest places ever and have shined the brightest. Some times on the same day. I’ve lost control of everything I felt like I controlled and have asked for help more than I feel comfortable doing. I’ve been pulled outside my comfort zone, so I could stretch and grow. I’ve been embarrassed and shamed and been honored and praised for it. It makes no sense, but it’s all true.
Life is fragile and delicate and hearty and with deep roots. A moment should never be wasted though because it only takes a second for life to instantly change forever.
If I have it and you need it, I’ll give it. I’ve learned there’s much more to gain by giving all you have than keeping it for yourself. God didn’t desire for our lives to be about us but about others.
Faith is much more than believing. It’s knowing whatever is best is what you have right now. That’s not always been easy for me. God and I have had serious conversations about this. The funny thing is the things that have upset me the most throughout this entire process have nothing to do with cancer. It proves it was easy for me to give God my cancer since I knew I couldn’t control it if I wanted to, but all this other stuff that I’ve always felt like I could control, or someone else should take care of, yeah, well, that’s been a lot harder to hand over to God and have faith that what He’s doing right now is part of a greater plan. I just keep on praying and admitting my weaknesses believing His strengths will override my weaknesses one day. This is part of God’s plan too. I’m pretty sure God’s using cancer to prove to me I don’t get to be in control. He was, is, and will be forever, and I’m still trying to accept that.
I’m thankful for my cancer, and I don’t want to waste it. My first instinct was to teach because that’s what I do. My second was to give back and help out because no one should ever have to fight alone. But my ultimate goal is to give God the glory in all things! The struggles have helped as much as the easy times. God’s placed a smile on a sad face and has given energy to a tired body. He replaced anxiety with peace and has provided me with what I’ve needed through so many sources. God said share and I have. He told me to give Him the glory and He would bless me in return. His promises have all been kept.
In writing this, my faith has been strengthened. I think God did that on purpose. I’m learning it’s how He works some times. Learning to like cancer and not waste it has not always been easy, but some of our most precious items must go through significant torment in order to be refined.
Psalms 66:10-12 – For You have tried us, O God; You have refined us as silver is refined. You brought us into the net; You laid an oppressive burden upon our loins. You made men ride over our heads; We went through fire and through water, Yet You brought us out into a place of abundance.
1 Peter 1:6-9 – In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, so that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which is perishable, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ; and though you have not seen Him, you love Him, and though you do not see Him now, but believe in Him, you greatly rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, obtaining as the outcome of your faith the salvation of your souls.